its my belief that my big balls should be held everynight.

ughhhh i love ac/dc. 

anyway. so im gonna try to blog my ass off from now on.  ((i've been putting this off for a while now--thanks ryan seaford for making ur blog and reminding me that i have to do this))

my cell phone is ready to take another shit. its the 5th fucking time i've had this phone. something is SERIOUSLY wrong with me because i talk on the phone soooo freaking much. but its like i NEED to do it. its baddd

anywaaay i really love Balthus rite now. i think in a lot of ways his paintings are what i wish i could do. i love the way he plays tricks with peoples minds, and they dont even realize it at first. its like he plays with the morality of peoples minds--making them see things they don't want to accept. and he has all these motifs and symbols that show up time and time and time again in his paintings. its so sexual tho, its like overwhelming. you get these images of young girls who are stuck in adolescence or on the verge of womanhood--its like, you dont wanna look at them like theyre women but theyre forcing you to because they're changing sexually and know that you're looking at them. theyre all exhibitionists and force you to be the voyeur. you end up being so inquisitive about them, and what theyre thinking. its wild. and you constantly see the same images repeated and repeated, the cat (which is so obvious its stupid), the mirror (the look into the future and the past at the same time-these girls looking at themselves because they realized they've changed, and are changing and like who theyve become.) the curtains being swept back (not necessarily about letting the light in, but also about how these girls are truly being exposed.)  i love the idea that these girls are able to swap back n forth between the realms of childhood and womanhood, its like theyre supernatural because they can be whichever they wanna be whenever the wanna be.  thats not something you can do for long, they have an advantage over people and a disadvantage at the same time because theyre almost vulnerable because of it.  haha i could go on about this foreverr.  some people think his work is pedophiliac but its not even about that. at all. people just cant accept art for art and try to find a deeper emotion within urself. its not about the girls and that they happen to be somewhat revealing.  its more about harnessing that 'supernatural' power of being able to flip flop between girlhood and womanhood, and forcing you as the viewer to be intrigued by something that is so taboo. ugh okay i'm done i guess...i just love how there is deeper meaning to things, and i love trying to figure out all these questions in art and in music. PS the name of that painting is Therese Dreaming, by Balthus.